MOVED, yes again.

http://wanderrrrlust.livejournal.com. (:

GameFreak.

I have GameFreak potential, it is proven. I am level 10 on Granado Espada (I can never remember the name) and I feel so proud of myself. All 3 of my characters reached level 10 before I quit! Anyway, I received little or even none help from Merv OK, so I basically figured out stuff on my own, but of course, I learnt from experiences (like how my three team members ended up with only one left because I moved to another map before the rest of my members revived), so I looked quite silly to people who are, well, good at GE. Anyway, I swear my guy character is hot! But the game is seriously perverse, to me, because it’s so Japanese comic-like, the boobs of the females are seriously, a bit big. Looks very obscene on my DVD cover, so I’d, prefer to cover it. (laughs)  Anyone interested in joining me in GE can ask me for the DVD that I bought, very welcome!

Kenji is seriously making me feel guilty. Maybe I really should ‘mug’ Chinese for O levels, but I just can’t bring myself to start – how to? I can only watch the news and read the newspaper, well, I’m really sick of doing TYS, because we’re doing so much of it at school anyway. But it seems quite scary, because the Chinese O levels is in eight days. This is freaking me out, I should start doing some stuff soon. Oh yeah, my new blog header! Cute right?! I know. But I’m getting a bit sick of WP although I’m very used to it. I miss Kenji aplenty, and I’m going to see more of him after the Chinese O levels! (claps) Sometimes old friends can never be replaced, no matter what. Oh and yes, I’m going to sign up for that SengKang Community Center Study Room thing, and then maybe sometimes I can study with Shi Hui or just myself, am quite excited by it.

And yes, yesterday was quite an emotional roller-coaster ride. I sounded cheerful to people, but well, what can I say? I don’t like bringing my sorrows to people around me. Perhaps I’m just fated to face all these alone, perhaps it might make me grow stronger or somewhat. I don’t know – I’m used to fighting alone. But thanks aplenty to Merv because he’s always around, no matter what, and although I don’t elaborate on what’s happening to me to him, he’s just there (although he lags an awful lot when he’s gaming) but well, at least there’s someone who’s, just there. (I’m in love with italics, I swear, and Georgia the font, but my blog seriously refuses to apply it.) Oh yes, and if Dina, you’re reading this, your blog background is ready, but it looks a teeny bit weird, if you don’t like it I will take it back, but I can’t do better because there isn’t better pictures of ponies. -.-

I may be moving back to Live Journal, simply because – everyone’s there!! I feel lonely at WP. But I’m changing my LJ domain I think, because I’m a teeny bit sick of AF, but I guess I could put it under the same account, no? OK, no. I think I’ll import all my entries from WP over to LJ too. I’m seriously in love with Avril Lavigne’s songs, any kind souls can send me all her songs, or lend me her disc for ear candy? I really want. Her songs make me seriously happy, because I sing along and lose control. ♥

OK, I shall start moving my entries to a new LJ account, shouldn’t I? I need some help deciding. ):

COMMENT, COMMENT!

Funny.

Funny how people say I sound cheerful.

I love Joanne Yaoooo.
and this is the funniest episode of Spongebob I’ve watched so far, so I’m sharing. (:

SpongeBob SquareP The Camping Episode
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No.

No, I’m not OK.

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

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Downfall.

Is it OK to feel this upset? Well, you’re never happy with whatever I do, and I’m tired of it. I really am. I just want… someone who cares about me enough to ask me how I feel when I get home, pat me on my back when I’ve done well for my studies, and basically give me food when I feel hungry. Is that too much to ask for? Or you’ve always thought those are demands rather than essentials? I’m beginning to doubt my reasons for existence, and I’m pretty sure that’s not a very good thing. If it all comes down to this, then well, the love isn’t very deep after all, is it? I don’t know what to do to make it OK, because it obviously can’t be mended, because a heart is a fragile thing, where you can’t just treat it lightly according to your mood. It will not make it OK, it will never be the same again, ever. I feel sick to the stomach, am I even wanted here? God, give me some strength, I’m really tired, of life.

This video doesn’t exactly show my feelings now, but it’s so sad I keep crying when I watch it. I guess I’m depressed or something. I just want someone to lean on so badly, and there’s no one. I fear, that this may be the start to my downfall, after all, was there ever a peak? Or was I just halfway through, never ever getting to the tip? Perhaps, perhaps, I was wrong, but have you ever thought that you could be the one at fault too? Why am I always the one to blame? I’m seriously sluggish, I have no energy to face all these with a smile, despite my laughter. No one understands, or will ever, because I refuse to tell anyone. So is it my fault then, that I have no more strength to walk down this torturous journey called life? Is it myself then, causing my own doom? Well, perhaps there really is two sides to me: a stronger side, and one that crumbles so badly it is often impossible to pick up again.

这次我真的要,离开了.
我决定这样,放手.

Joy.

Well, this week wasn’t bad, and I continue my uninteresting life of doing nothing other than going to school and television-ing. I’m going to start studying with Celesther (<3) soon, and I’m looking forward to it because I don’t think Dina can come out to study and there’s a lot to catch up with Celesther and all. Oh yes, I’m going to make a new blog-skin today, a cute one for this blog and my Vox (if anyone will ever forget, there’s this post that proves that I discovered the ever-cool Vox first! I’m the first!). Vox is rather cool really, with very powerful blogging tools like Word Press, it also offers more customizable stuff like backgrounds (they provide you with pretty and plain backgrounds to choose from) and you are able to change your banner picture too (just like Word Press), but they offer more pretty ready-made designs for your pick, and it’s really pretty and tempting. But I cannot bear to leave my Word Press, since I’ve been here for quite a long time already (this is my 30th post, mind you) and if I move it’s going to start a whole new moving thing again, and I’m far too lazy for that, so in the meantime, I’ll have two blogs, but my Vox won’t be revealed, maybe, until I find the appropriate time.

I’m watching Spongebob Squarepants and I’m going to nap soon, since we had the day off earlier today. Then I’m going to wake up at 5 to start my television marathon. I feel rather ashamed, I waste too much time on television, got to stop doing this. Spongebob is rather stupid, but well, it gives me something to do. I have to decide on a design for my blogs and finally make a decision of whether to, you know, move the entire blog to my Vox or just stay where I am and be happy with Word Press. Both are idiotically sexy and tempting and I don’t know where to go! Help me choose, if you are reading this, drop a comment, Word Press, or Vox? If I really do move my entire blog to Vox I’m going to import all 30 entries over too, but well, I still don’t know if I should do it. Well, here’s some pros and cons: Word Press looks more professional (although Vox’s blogging device is equally tempting) and Word Press has no ads (Vox has a line of ads at the bottom of the blog). Vox is prettier in the sense that I can change my background color and all but Word Press disallows me to do that. Word Press counts very accurate stats for me, Vox does none. Vox looks very sexy, so does WP. Help!

OK, I’ve decided:
I will remain on Word Press to blog of unnecessary things like my daily life etcetera.
I will blog at Vox for more meaningful and funnier posts, which are not for your viewing, unfortunately.

OK, that’s settled then. Off to napping. (:
♥ Loves aplenty,
Jiaying

Life.

Oh yes, thought of a prayer today. (:

Thank You, God.
You didn’t give me talents but You gave me will,
You didn’t give me riches but You gave me enough.
I may feel that You were unfair at times,
But now I see – that You love me all the same,
And what I have is enough,
For I have You,
And I need nothing more.
Thank You, God.

 

I am a happy kid today! Although I do have a marvelous collection of Cs for my mid-years, I was practically dying halfway through the exams but I survived it, and well, I got one fail and that’s Add. Math! I’m not a person who asks for more so I’m actually glad with my results because I knew how little effort I put in for this examination. All papers have been gotten back, and I’m as free as a bird! Special special thanks to Keith L., Dina H., Charmaine K., Mervin T. and Feezah M. for all the support this mid-years! And if not for Keith and Dina I would have jumped down from the second floor and broke my leg. So thank you, all of you, without you I’d never have survived! Here’s my results if some, KPOs are interested, because I realise my blog readership is getting higher, and I don’t know who else who reads it at school besides Charmaine. So oh well, here goes.

English…..60 (B4)
Chinese…..84 (A1)
Elementary Mathematics…..70 (A2)
Additional Mathematics…..42 (E8)
Science (Physics/Chemistry)…..50 (C6)
Literature-in-English…..58 (C5)
Combined Humanities (Social Studies/Elective History)…..53 (C6)

See, my beautiful collection of Cs! It’s very weird, my humanities is deproving yet my Math are improving. Maybe it’s something to be happy about… Hmm.

Well, shall blog later if I have more to say.
Lotsa love for Dina, Esther and Charm, I can never get very upset about my results, so well, this is only a start, and everything will be better!(:

<3s much for Feezah the Vulgar! (:

Luck?

Wello. Maybe I should try blogging a long entry today, been quite long since I last did that, no? Well, today wasn’t that bad a day, was it? At least I’m certain I must be some, Science genius in the making or somewhat, because I passed Science, on the dot! Although you might be thinking, “Huh, like that she also happy.” But clear that evil thought from your minds, you witches, because I did not study much – and that means absolutely no memorising – for Science but voila, your favourite friend got a pass! But unfortunately (yet expected?) I failed my Social Studies by two marks, and I wasn’t that upset by it (was quite happy in fact), because I really went into the examination hall on Social Studies day without a very very clear image of what I’d studied at all, and it is a miracle, yes a miracle, that I actually did my SEQ well, but I had no time for Source-Based (gosh, whenever you tell me this I miss Mrs. Lee so badly) and thus it pulled me down quite a lot and I failed my Social Studies. But well, then again, I’m happy the mids are over, and perhaps, these don’t seem to matter so much anymore, because I’m confident for my Prelims and my O levels, that’s all that’s enough, ain’t it?

Anyway, I have this disgusting urge to skin today, and I suddenly feel like moving back to Blogspot, since everyone’s having an Live Journal now (I have also, OK!) and Blogspot allows my creative juices to flow… *looks far far away into the distance*. WordPress is superdy duper cool in the blogging devices and all because I’ve gotten so used to it and I have about 30 posts here? It’s gonna be a hard decision… Maybe I’ll design a skin for this blog then, though I can’t do much, just the header. Some kind soul purchase some CSS credits for me on WP? Anyway, I’ve gotten stuck with Live Journal’s CSS because no matter how hard I try it doesn’t work, so well, maybe I should just be happy and stick to the marvelous WP (but I still super hope they can have MORE MORE MORE skins and can let me have a beautiful skin which allows more side widgets). Or maybe I should move to wretch… Well, I should check out some new blogging sites, but pray that I won’t move my blog yet again.  OK, I just found another super hot site for blogging, but there’s no customised designing tool too, not even CSS. But it’s pretty cool overall, perhaps even better than WP, I can upload my own banner there too! OK, maybe I should just have two blogs.

I realised ‘anyway‘ is one of my favourite words, weird. Anyway (there I go again) I got my CLEO magazine like finally, and was quite disappointed because I was expecting so much more from it. Well, I’ve got to read a lot of stuff and start doing things before I fail very badly for my other examinations. It’s always like that when you don’t have a tuition teacher, when you have one, you start with the better foot. I believe I can do it on my own! Anyway, it’s getting awfully late, and I still don’t have ideas for names for my other blog at the mysterious blog-hosting site (which is too cool to reveal, it’s not ad-filled like the less popular hosts, Blogdrive etc.). Drop some comments for name ideas if you have some, I desperately need it. Thank you in advance (though I think there would be like, less than two ideas)!

I need to go get some mapling done soon or else I can forget about watching television and studying. Life’s a bother, you know? I’m so sick of life, but well, there are so many ironic things happening. Like bitches being more popular or more well-accepted than truthful friends, people being mean when people can be nice… What’s up with the world? Well, the world needs a serious disk de-fragmentation. I miss so many people I could die, just for a better talk with them since like, forever, people like Dawn, Celesther… Life’s getting so busy that friends fade away far too quickly. There’s nothing I can do, though. Gah, I don’t think I can survive mapling, I’m so tired I could just like, fall asleep on this stupid laptop. Forget about blog-redesigning if I continue blogging so super slowly.

Well, Mr. Chang is super annoyingly cute today, funny! I think he made me feel light-hearted about failing Social Studies.

(: I am strong and you, this pain in the ass, will not get to me, because you are a child of God yet you do nothing Christ-like, and I shall still treat you nice and be your friend although you’re awfully fake to me, and I will be truthful and honest to you because I know I cannot treat me as they treat me!  Mrs. Chan’s talk was inspiring OK, though most of the people refused to listen closely to it, came at the right time too. Mrs. Chan is a worthy principal. Fine, I shall go take a nap.

Sighs.

Prayer of the week.

Lord, I thank You  for all the wonderful people You’ve placed in my life, Charmaine, Dina, Esther, Mr. Chang, Feezah, Merv, and many more. Yet I know there are some people whom may annoy me, irritate me, show dislike in me, be it treat me differently or not truthfully, I place my trust in You that as long as I endure and do not respond as they would like me to, and forgive them as You would forgive me, it would all turn out fine and I will not be made a scapegoat for anything. Also, I know that as long as I have You here with me, and that You would guide me through all obstacles, I will not be afraid to go to school or to meet a person who has a particular disliking in me. I would also hope that You would give me the strength and courage to go to church this Sunday, be it Dina’s church or Mr. Sim’s, and that I can hear Your word and understand it. Amen.

Well, I asked Dina to ‘force’ me to go to church if I back out the last minute again, I swear I feel so sorry. Well, today a lot of things happened, yet I’m going to face tomorrow with a smile again. I’m no longer angry with anyone. Smiles.

<3s aplenty for Feezah the Great! (: